Tuesday, December 30, 2008

world


when the world is filled with happiness, everything is better. You feel better, you look better, and you yourself are better. why can't the world be filled with happiness? why can't people just be better? questions fill my mind, searching and longing for this answer. But unfortunately, I believe that it will never be answered. Or my life long dream for the world to be filled with happiness will ever come to pass. Doubt fills my brain and my heart. millions of souls are loosing hope, and loosing faith. I want to be someone who brings them up from the water. I want to be there when they feel bliss and happiness. I want to be there when the world experiences happiness together in a moment of unity and strength. I will make a difference and help those in need. I will be better. And I wont have to question or fill my self with doubt ever again.

Monday, December 29, 2008

unicorns live.

I want to be able to speak, not think, but SPEAK. speak what is currently on my mind. What I know and how I feel. But people take things too harshly and get offended by the dumbest things. People will never grow up, never learn to be an adult. They will always be drama and will always be too prideful in themselves. I just wish I understood why people would want to be in that state of mind ALL of the time. It is incomprehensible to me. Just live and be free.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Elmo's world


"Take me for who I am, who I was meant to be"

one of my all time favorite quotes. It just can mean so much in such little length of words. This one tiny phrase tells me how to live my life and how to except others.

I know that I can read too far into things, and that I can be a bit strange, but I just want my friends to know that I love them and that I love being around them. You guys except me for my quirkiness and my oddness. I never want to loose touch with you guys. You 4 are awesome and teach me so many things...I think we teach other so many things.

I want to tell eachother about the cake we made or tasted without any judgment and regrets.


I love you! SO EFFING MUCH!

Monday, December 15, 2008

many colors

I am a person of many colors, but sometimes those colors mesh together to try to blend in.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

twilight before christmas

hahah I found this earlier today. It is just to get people in the christmas mood.

Friday, December 5, 2008

The dancers

This is a video I have been meaning to post on here. Justin is SO hillarious. Him and I are on first name basis right now. He and I have long chats on the phone about life struggles and how he likes to golf instead of sing now. But whatev, atleast I can watch im make a complete hillarious fool of himself everyday with this HILLARIOUS video.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Don't eat yellow snow

I am EXCITED for the holiday that I love most to come! The season of joy of love of faith of comfort, GAH! It is just a great way to feel close to the family. hahaaa. Fer realz yo, Christmas is the most wonderful time of the year. I don't mean to sound cliche, but it truly is. Everyone just seems to be nicer to me, when they are not shopping for the "perfect" present. which that shouldn't really matter, all that should matter is that you are surrounded by the people that mean the most. But people have lost the real and true meaning of Christmas, they are so lost in the material things that they forgot the reasons why we celebrate this wonderful time. We celebrate it because the most influential human being was born into the world. The person the reason why we are here on this earth. He sacrificed everything for us to be here, but people loose sight of that fact, and don't care. But all I know, is that do.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

rum and coke

Friends are my vice. They are the people that I can rely on to make me happy, and to get me out of my "dark place". Over the weekend I got to have alone time with my 4 girls that mean the world to me.
Tay: beautiful, outgoing, wonderful, and a joy to be around.Brittany: gullible, amazing, genuine, and plain-old fantastic. Alyssa: kind-hearted, trusting, sarcastic, and all around gorgeous.
And Rachel: doggy-sounding, deep, down to earth, and never forgets who she is.


If pictures could talk this one would have a thousands word...



These girls make me proud of who I am. We don't party hardy and all the wild crazy stuff, but we do get high on love every time we are with each other. We know what we want and we know how to keep our priorities straight.


I'm a large marge, and can't fit into cars.


We celebrated Britt's birthday together. It was fun, and crazy cold/scary. Brittany and I were tragically bailed on by people(who will remain anonymous) when a dog nearly killed us! sad day, but the past is behind us and that is all that matters...even if they will burn in HADES!

At least Rachel showed to eat all of the brownies at the last hour :D.

Monday, December 1, 2008

buddy the elf


As the time passes, I am left with only hope and faith for the future. I feel that I am here for something beyond my expectations. Not knowing exactly what is to come, but just knowing that something will. Something that will make me the person I was born and meant to be. I sit and feel that it will soon happen. I feel someone telling me that I am more than ordinary, I am Extraordinary. I am so happy for my faith in god and everything that he is worth. He is my anchor in the dark, the light of my life, my everything. He sent everyone of us down here for a reason. He has expectations for all of us to fulfill and to make a title of. I am not going to waste my life away just sitting and waiting. I am going to lavish my life by doing and making.


We are born to make a difference and rise above everyone else.